I collect discarded images. I call them my adopted family. I don't know how families loose these members but it's a constant subject of wonderment for me. Who could not see the beauty in this image?
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Kids on the Subway They make adults smile and look slowly at one another smiling. Others make a nearly audible growl at the sight of them. Either way the effect is strong.
Saturday Morning train Someone didn't have their morning crap till just now.
Subway There's a three year old white boy on the platform who is shaking his butt in a blue and white stripped hat and he's shouting,"I like to move it move it! I like to move it move it!" Like he was born to perform it.
The French They've taken over every city I go to. It's as though I go to France everyday and retreat to America. It feels like when I lived in France.
Bad Day and I got yelled at by the bus driver. What a bitch she was.
New Apartment So cute, so clean, so toxic. I knew I had to leave the house when I was having a staring contest with Marilyn and she winked at me.
Eye twitch My left eye spazes out of control 20-100 times a day. I used to fake a nervous twitch and now I've got one.
Owning Money It's giving me an eye twitch
Thought processes on the subway I love catching strangers when they are so in their heads they don't realize their faces are going through all the emotions their minds mirror. I just caught a girl make herself smile.
I wrote this when I was drunk Do you ever want to scream? Yeah fine we all do but do you ever get the urge to scream out across a long distance to someone,"Your haircut blows! It makes you look bald!"To someone who has a perfectly good head of hair but has done it a terrible injustice. Sometimes I get this sensation. Or once I wanted to scream, "I thought you had the worst varicose veins I've ever seen since old ankles in france but it's just your tights with a spaghetti pattern!" Why I wonder why is it so hard to imagine yourself at a distance. I know it is
that moment when you part ways And this person you know and love is across the platform and they haven't seen you and you for the first time really see them in another light with that look on their faces that strangers have. That look you hope to never see from them, that look of indifference.
Marshalls He had a tear tattoo, a mango scented candle in his hand and the softest voice when he spoke of the toxic aromas as though they were the loveliest molecules to pass his nose. He held the candle as though it were an egg of a baby angel and brought it up to his nose. His face softened beyond what he portrayed and he asked me what my favorite was. They smelled awful but I said vanilla.
Medicaid Office I helped a blind man that only spoke Spanish fill out his application which he kept reading?
Social Security Security Line There was a black man with no teeth but his smile made up for it. He had alzheimers or was just pleasantly buzzed. He had a naughty smile, he wore like normal people wear a frown. He didn't understand a word anyone was saying in fact his lack of reaction would've caused you to believe he was deaf. They began to search him. First they found an industrial sized nutcracker in his fancy smoking jacket. Then another tool, large and still in plastic. He acted as clueless as a baby that doesn't associate the bad smell with their own form. He removed his jacket and put it on the belt. His daughter reached into his pockets to find two brand new watches and a broach with the tags still attached and her eyebrows waved about as she looked at her dad. He just smiled in no particular direction.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Here's what I felt like doing today
Thursday, January 15, 2009
The Empire State Building
I felt like a snow queen. We had 50 people dressed in 50 little suits greeting us at every corner warning us of zero visibility at the top. On we went passed the green screens through the velvet ropes. Dodging all these funny little people telling us there was nothing to see. And then we were there above all moving things in one of the fastest moving cities in the world and all was quiet and still. It was as though the snow was forming layers upon layers of thin silk laces ebbing in the winds at all levels softening all the city to a few single sharp edges and glows. I did a rock n' roll power slide and laughed. Then I just smiled at the city for a good twelve minutes but I don't think it could see me. Thank You Ben
The Moma
Marlene Dumas Looking at Marlene Dumas' portraits is not like looking at art at all. It's like being in a room filled up with people who are fully exposed and available for any and all speculation and they seem to want to talk to you but can't decide if they like you enough to strike a conversation. It was one of the most awkward, touching, social interactions I've ever had and I highly suggest meeting her pieces face to face and asking them their secrets as soon as you get the chance.
Nan Goldin
She has dedicated her life to telling a truth and she tells it beautifully. She doesn't withhold the gorey details and she doesn't spit shine the pretty parts. It's just her life and it's beautiful to behold.
Theo Jansen
Just in case you haven't been introduced to this genius Sorry I don't mean to advertise it's just the best footage there is of them. If you find better let me know
Sunday, January 4, 2009
The Whitney Calder made me cry with his circus
because it reminded me of the people I love and why I love them.
And William Eggleston says, "I'm at war with the obvious." Which I think is a brilliant statement.
If my childhood were a song, he would be singing the chorus.
William Eggleston It touched me so much I went back to it four times.
Hot Dog Not the best. Not the worst. Smaller than on the big screen. Made me sick. But I'll do it again.
Friday, January 2, 2009
Almonds I bought some on Broadway because they smelled so rich and tasty in the cold air. Even after I found the Honey roasted hair I couldn't stop myself from finishing the bag.
Waterman On Broadway a man's water bottle fell out his bag and another man bent to pick it up and return it. He went dashing after the speed walker not noticing that the bottles top had become loose and he was spraying water everywhere as he ran. Then as he approached the speed walker he completely soaked his bag and his back and the speed walker turned and saw the bottle and said, "oh thank you." Neither of them ever noticing what the bottle had done.
The Bus There were three little kids in shades of girl, coats. Their scarves were tucked to just below their frog eyes. They sat there across from me letting their heads bob freely starring into me. They looked like some kind of plastic and plush toy hybrid the y tried to pass off in the eighties as cuddly but were always kind of creepy.
Subway There was a single Momma on the subway who toke out a pack of twizzlers and bit off half and gave the other to her baby daughter.
New Years At five o'clock Times Square was already packed with miserable people. From were I was the ball looked silly and unimportant but all those people in those 2009 glasses that illuminated in a spiral fashion looked great even if they were miserable or especially if they were.
Laundromat It is filled up with tropical plants covered in thick lint dust and I would've drawn them but the were vibrating so much I could barely see where their lines began. All the machines hit spin cycle at once and I felt like I was at a discount carnival and any minute the linoleum squares would part and my blue bucket seat would be sent squealing down a track. A man came in at one point with the comfort tone of mid conversation. He bellowed, "Look what I got! Look what I got!" No one seemed particularly interested. They weren't. "Smell it! Smell it!...Now doesn't that shit smell like diamonds?" He was holding his new bottle of tide like it was a trophy, a poor mans pride.